Warning This Topic is NOT For the Femininaly Sensative

So I was watching my show...Real Housewives of Atlanta, and Lisa mentioned she used the NuvaRing and I had a Gyno appointment coming up. So I let the doctor know that I was interested in changing birth control from the pill to the NuvaRing. I should have changed my mind when she said the muthfucka was $50 for one ring, but i inquired with my insurance company and they said I could get 3 for $80...so I'm like damn what a deal....so i get my prescription and head to Kroger. I get to the Kroger pharmacy and that lady tells me that it will be $120 for 3 rings and i get all confused....to get to the point I got one for $40, took it home and put it in. The packaging says specifically "you should not be able to feel the NuvaRing once inserted" so for the first 20 minutes I didn't and then all of a sudden it felt like something was trying to crawl out of me. So I go to the bathroom and what to a see...the little plastic ring sticking out.

SO let me explain this before i go any further...

As you can see from the diagram the Ring should be near the Green writing but it some how ends up near the Black writing. I have no conclusions because they claim that after sex it could fall out but after sex it always ends up in the perfect position for days even forget that it is there. But now I am just done I really think I am just going to go back to the pill, I mean at least with the pill I know it will stay in place and do its job. Well I just wanted to say that cuz it was grinding my gears.

Have You Ever

Have you ever just woke up and wanted to go back to sleep...thats how i felt when i woke up this morning...I was ready to just thro the towel in on the day and give up. But I have to build a drive and make myself do what needs to be done...So I am at the library..and i can feel my spirits lifting...I am still a little upset but if i keep myself busy i think I will be alright.

Pissed....

Dell just screwed me...like really bad...let me tell you my story.


So my homegirl bought me the Sims 3 and anyone who knows me knows I am a Sims fanatic. Well I download the game on my new Dell Inspiron mini 10v. I go to play the game and the computer tells me the graphics card is not found. So at 4 something in the AM I call Dell. And obviously at this time of the morning there is no one on Dell's payroll that speaks English as there first language, But I deal with it. I talk to one person after the next. Then I get to this guy who seems to be helping me but I guess not....

I tell him I need 2GHz and I keep saying I need gigahertz, he is just saying gigz so i figure we r on the same damn page...and we were but this M-effer was in the GB RAM book and I was in the GHz book. So I just spent $45 om 2 GB RAM that I dont need. So i go to try to cancel it but guess what...the people who speak English dont come in until 8AM....BS total BS.....what happened to 24 hour customer service. By the time I get to talk to someone it will be too late to cancel my order.

I would say the money is not an issue but it is if I am getting something I do not want or need...and I still cant play the damn Sims.....

FAIL

Not Feeling This Shit Here

So I have been at work all night well since 3am and I am so sleepy. I hope my relieve comes in early. This fight is beconing a losing battle. Thank God for Steve Harvey because my work buddoes have failed me. Damn

*Sigh*

Wat team I don't have one...I don't have friends that die hard for me like I die hard for them and I think that is something I will never get used to so I have to change. I have to make ppl see that I don't wanna b a giver anymore I want to me a sitter. I want to sit and wait for other ppl to do shit and that should b fine but it won't be. I'm sick of calling the bank and getting the rudest person in there on the phone when my money isn't right. I'm sick of giving to my friends just for them to say fuck u until they need something again. And I am tired of life. If I was the suicide type I think this post would be my going away present to the world but since I'm not its just another rant about how my life no matter how simple it may seem is complicated. Shit I want a man who will take care of me and give to me without looking at his bank account. I need friends who want to help me and not just party and drink with me. I need to start over. Because if I could go back to 5 years ago I would have all of that and more because I would do things that make me happy. And right now in my life I am not happy and I damn sure deserve to be.

Obsessed

So I a obsessed with blogtv.com....that shit is bananas...I personally am not down for talking to a camera and trying to read ppls comments all at once but I love it. I think you guys should check it out....Oh and if you read either of my blogs on the reg please become a follower.....I would truly love to know who I am entertaining....and tell a friend....

Just UP.....CR.Dreamin'

Well I am up and awake(I worked last night) and it is so weird I have a Dream about these Creative Recreations....

Creative Recreations
Galow Hi

So Now I Want Them!!!!

Im Up, NOT Cool!!

Hey u guys I'm up with the sun and not very happy about it. I can not stand my job. And sometimes its not so much the job as the working conditions,the situation, and the necessity for me to be here for my own fiscal benefit. I am constantly in a on going battle with the one I call sleep. Studying all day yesterday, then I went to the hottest(not hot as in good but the literal meaning) indoor pool party ever in the history of indoor pool parties that I have been to. It was a 4 on a 1-10 scale in how fun it was. Some assholes got a kick out of throwing people in the pool with their phones and any other electrical devices attached. That is what made it so lame. And from the looks of outside today may be as lame as that party. Its day light but I lied when I said I was up with the sun cuz that little guy is MIA. So I will be napping before I go back into the deep meditations of study. My biggest goal as of right now is to try to stay awake for the next 5 hours without totally losing my mind. I want to bad to not even be sleepy right now but since I went to bed mad I didn't say my prayers and that leaves me at work tired and confused. And not looking forward to the last 3 hours of this shift. Well I think I'm done rambling on and on about my SAD life. I hope u all have a nice day I know I will try.

I Dont Like it One Bit

The swine flu is officially killing Americans. A 23month old child died from the swine flu and I am officially scared. I know that its a baby and their immune system is not as strong as that of an adult but its still kinda scary. I hope that I get lucky enough anf that I am blesseg enough for this sickness to pass me by. But this is definately proof of the end of times. Sicknesses are mutating from animals and infected humans and killing up. If I get this sickness I could definately end up broke and homeless and I don't have time for that. So right now all I can do is pray that this sickness does not affect me or any of my loved ones. And I think u should pray too

PS I really need some sleep I am mad mad mad tired

Nighttime Poetry

So many word in English
So many ways to form them
The hazard in the danger
There's no real way to warn them
There has to be a guiding light
A meaning to these scars
I wait for love to come from a far
To wait with open arms
But I get nothing
No not a thing
Not a smile or wink or glimps
The thing I love of about life the most
Are the rapid growths and skimps
The skimps off peoples daily act
To take a final sip
So sip away at your little cup of life
And make your dreams come true
'Cause a dream is just a reality living inside of you
Copyright 2009

Still Up

So I'm lying in bed tryin to figure out y in the world am I still awake. I have been awake since 530 AM and have not been able to sleep. I think I messed up my sleep schedule with my overnight shift. But all of that is fine because I only work 3 house tomorrow morning. I just wish I didn't have to be home alone. And my artistic juices have stopped flowing. I want to write poetry but the poems won't come. I am trippin. I have not been myself lately but I have to bring in my positive energy back.