Controllin Myself

Mind wanders
Every shit I right starts like this
Because my mind is and orphan on a lonely trip
It strolls thru the dark and leaves me lifeless
I can stand it
Can't conprehend it can't explain it
I'm living
I'm dying
I'm standing
But mainly
I'm tryin to control myself

Still Up

So I'm lying in bed tryin to figure out y in the world am I still awake. I have been awake since 530 AM and have not been able to sleep. I think I messed up my sleep schedule with my overnight shift. But all of that is fine because I only work 3 house tomorrow morning. I just wish I didn't have to be home alone. And my artistic juices have stopped flowing. I want to write poetry but the poems won't come. I am trippin. I have not been myself lately but I have to bring in my positive energy back.