Contagious and They Spread

So I was sitting here at work thinking...you know that's how I live my life...always thinkin about shit well I was thinking about things that are weird like...
*Smiles are contagious- like if u r upset someone can make u smile simply by smiling hard enough at you
*Yawns are Contagious- like even the thought of a yawn makes u want to yawn... Everytime I type the word yawn I feel the urge
*Itches spread- like when u have a itch in one place once that itch is relieved u start to itch in other places...I even read about some ones noes itching and mine started to itch

Do you have any more weird contagious and spreading things

I Should Be Sleep But...

Well I should be sleep but I just wanna talk. I realized today that what's cute to some is not cute to all. Mind you I am not ugly but I guess I'm not what the average dude would call cute. I hold myself to a high standard and I love the people who r around me and let me kno I am beautiful. But I guess those r just the people who kno me. I feel like I pride myself on not being ugly but it hurts when ppl don't agree that u r cute. I don't kno how many ppl feel me on that but that was on my mind and I think that is why I am still awake. I love the ppl who say I am beautiful but r they just saying that because they kno me or did they think that when they first saw me. IDK. Some ppl like my bestie, my dude and some of my closer friends have told me that they always thought I was beautiful. But now I'm getting sleepy see venting and ranting is better than masturbation if u need to sleep.

But befor I go to sleep I have to say one more thing. Why are we still on the light skinned dark skinned brown skinned thing. Yes I do believe that anything darked that light is often over looked and just like lighter girls we are always assumed to be something other than black if we are pretty of have nice skin or curly hair. Why can't I be black. Black men need to stop downing women. Your preference is your preference but just because I'm brown does not make me ugly. Get with it. Briwn is. Back. I love all od my black sisters and we need to stand together and let these niggas kno that u won't turn us against one another.

Laying in the Room

I have been up since 1pm and it is now 401 am. I am so lost and have the slightest idea y I am awake. Well it is kinda hot in the house and I am really bored. There is something about my home town that keeps me up all night. When I say there is nothing to do there is totally nothing to do but still I am here,awake and wondering why. Not ony wondering y but knowing that no one will read this until I am fast asleep or unable to do anything but sit somewhere with my mom tomorrow and look at the walls. And don't even get me started on my hair. Every since it started growing I am at a total lose for what I dhould do with it. And I never really have to. Experiment to I am stuck with silly atempts to look cool or at least have way decent. I knew I should have left my raggity hair alone and just let it me bad looking (to me) cuz ppl just say "y did u cut your hair" and when u explain they say " I didn't see anything wrong with it". Well of course u didn't its not like I was going around showing evrybody how bad my hair was breaking off. And don't get me start on my mother's mood swings. Y is she insisting on annoying me or upsetting me. AND Y AM I SO DAMN SENSATIVE? Not to mention I'm here without my boo and nobody I chill with.

So after one day this is turning into a very mediocre visit home and as I get more or less annoyed I will keep u updated.