Life's Riddle: Who, When, Where?

Who?
I am the bloom of a flower on a summers crisp day
I am the melting of the ice from that summer suns ray
I am the dream that exhales from the eyes of all day
I am the growth of the seed that was blown a stray

When?
It was a time when the world needed to free space
When every where that u went was the perfect place
When time was slow and man knew no race
When women carried themselves with style and grace

Where?
It is a place where men and women can all me free
Where there's no I, me, them, or us, just WE
Where things are asked of you and there is no decree
Where u can be a somebody with no degree

These are the question asked of me
Where will I go and who will I be
I answer these questions simply
I am who I am and I'll be who I be

Brain Drain

Well this is where I let out a few random thoughts. It won't make sense it may be a little funny but its just a way for me to empty my brain...love hate friends enemies love lost home friends water water water reaching out for me I am so fuckin depressed I need help I need friends I need love. I'm so lost. Joy anger brain brain brain sorrow. Ill be one tough act to follow. No followers. Relationships. Damn. Fuck relationships. Tears. Loneliness flashing lights beauty. Inner outer friends. Hope faith God the Devil food hunger money ha ha ha ha. I need real time. I love my friends. I need a new life a new day. A new a new me. Short hair. I want my hair back. I digress. I want to smile smile smile smile smile smile damnit damnit just smile. Please no tears. Stop don't cry. Stay cool its just a brain drain chill out. Deep breathes breathe breathe. Old friends. Weird ppl. Y do I always meet fucked up ppl. Y do I want to be liked by ppl. I want to be a bitch. Y can't I be mean. Y can't he just leave me. I need help lately I've been hard to reach. Where am I. I'm not answering myself. Beauty inner. Outer. Do I have either damn damn. D. A. M. N. What in the fuck is in my mind.


Breathe

Why???

When talking to a few of my female friends(yes I do fux with a few chicas LOL)yesterday I realized as females we have a problem with letting go. We need explanations and calculation and investigations. We can't just let things go. I have noticed that in order for me to move on in the past I have had to start a new relationship. Its just silly. We as women need to start standing strong in what we believe in. I have started deleting ppls numbers from my phone but I always find a way to get their numbers back. I have been hurt so much in my short years that I sometimes even over react to the things that ppl don't do. This is not about male relationships. This is about all relationships. I have had ppl drop me just for me to find out I did nothing wrong but the whole time we weren't talking I was thinking that I had done something so I make it a point not to drop ppl for no reason and not to drop ppl without letting them know why. Because if they r really your friend u should b able to talk it out. I have recently been re-introduced to two of the realest females I know and they r ppl that I have known all my life and at the end of the day even they have letting go problems. I don't judge because I have been there and I am writing this blog to let them know that I know where they r coming from. The bottom line is women can't let go with out knowing what they r letting go of and y.